now i know..

Okay..

After ivee seen it, ive eperience it, after knowing it, after reading it...

now i know..

no matter how hard you try, no matter how big you sacrifice, no matter how much you lost..

it just doesnt matter...

the more you do.. the worse it get.. and finally.. you'll just be nobody...

i messed up.. big time... and that is all it takes for everything youve done... seems like nothing youve done.. one or even twice the culprit... the whole things is gone..

im just a stepping stone.. that people will just step and forget..

no one.. just a small entity..

when they get what they want.. when they get what they need..

when they are all happy... they dont need you anymore...

youre are just "someone" in their life...

i dont know y.. i kept doing this..

i dont know why i sacrifice all this...

even, it never benefits me..

it never gave me anything..

it never satisfy me..

what the hell...

hmm..

mayb this is the fate of ..

those people.. who likes seeing people happy...

those who like making people happy..

those who put theirself last from anyone else..

being out of the picture..

or maybe i think too much.. or maybe i hope to much.. or maybe ive done too much..

haha..

theres no turning back now..

what have done.. it is all there..

i will still do my part..

i will still do my best..

i will still keep on smilling..

i will still make you guys happy...

but i think i will never going to hope high as i always did...

s it will always kiills me at the very end..

it is not about me...

life must go on...

ill do anthing for you guys..

what the heck...