Sometimes,

I do hate when people just think about themselves.

Baby are you ok

I hope that you are in good shape

And you’re not tied up in stress

And if it’s my luck you’ll wear a dress

10 minutes past your birthday

Kept you waiting for me

Well I got stuck finding the cake

And that’s why I was late

Deep see diving forever

Under the pressure

If it’s too much to ask

And kiss this rip off the rumors

Light up the humor

Hitch a Nadia ride

The story sings and the chemistry wins

For both of us a dream

Just let them go and turn off the lights

Cause it’s you and me tonight

You and me tonight

Super magic fever adopted

Desperate desire for the queen

I’ll be bubbling in between

And roll the dice

Twice if you want too

Red light to break down kick me out

To the end without a doubt

The story sings and the chemistry wins

For both of us a dream

Just let them go and turn off the lights

Cause it’s you and me tonight

You and me tonight

Now the times a machine

Just like the scene

Glory of the morning makes me sing

It makes me sing

And if you wanna go

Just take it slow

Crack a joke and walk right out the door

It’s who you know

The story sings and the chemistry wins

For both of us a dream

Just let them go and turn off the lights

Cause it’s you and me tonight

cooler than me - mike posner

If I could write you a song,
and make you fall in love,
I would already have you up under my arm.
I used to pull all my tricks,
I hope that you like this.
but you probably won't,
you think you're cooler than me.

you got designer shades,
just to hide your face and
you wear them around like
you're cooler than me.
and you never say hey,
or remember my name.
its probably cuz,
you think you're cooler than me.

you got your hot crowd,
shoes on your feet,
and you wear them around,
like they ain't shit.
but you don't know,
the way that you look,
when your steps
make
that
much
noise.

see I got you,
all figured out,
you need everyone's eyes just to feel seen.
girl, your so vain,
you probably think that this song is about you.
don't you? don't you?

if I could write you a song,
and make you fall in love,
I would already have you up under my arm.
I used to pull all my tricks,
I hope that you like this.
but you probably won't,
you think you're cooler than me.

you got designer shades,
just to hide your face and
you wear them around like,
you're cooler than me.
and you never say hey,
or remember my name.
it's probably cuz,
you think you're cooler than me.

you got your hot crowd,
switching your walk,
and you don't even look when you pass by.
but you don't know,
the way that you look.
when your steps make
that
much
noise.

and don't you dare act like you don't know,
know what's up,
cuz your nose is up.
I'm approaching up.
like I can't give you winter in the summer
or summer in the winter
Miami in December
trying to look bored in them Dior's.
she probably is,
Was acting shallow 'til she found out
how deep that my pockets is
Mrs. pre-Madonna, this is your reminder
That I think you're fine, but I'm finer

'Cause it sure seems
('Cause it sure seems)
You got no doubt
(That you got no doubt)
But we all see
(We all see)
You got your head in the clouds
(Clouds)

if I could write you a song,
and make you fall in love,
I would already have you up under my arm.
I used to pull all my tricks,
I hope that you like this.
but you probably won't,
you think you're cooler than me.

you got designer shades,
just to hide your face and
you wear them around like,
you're cooler than me.
and you never say hey,
or remember my name.
its probably cuz,
you think you're cooler than me.

Happy =)

Happy =)

Every day I’ve been trying to make my friends smiles.

Every day I’ve been trying to make my friends cheered up.

Every day I’ve been trying to make my friends safe.

Every day I’ve been trying to make my friends full of love.

Every day I’ve been trying to make my friends happy.

But yesterday, they make me feel special.

I had the most splendid and marvelous birthday ever. Please don’t be mistaken of what happen that night. I wasn’t shredding tears kay. It’s was just a glimpse and flashback of the past that I’ve been through. That I thought nobody care bout me. But yesterday, was the day I’ve got my answer. Really2 sorry guys for all the worst thing I’ve done to u guys. You guys are the best. Thanxss for everything. I don’t know how I should repay you guys. Love ya all.

Akeboshi -Wind (naruto soundtrack)

A song that i think suitable for me right now =p

Cultivate your hunger, before you idealize
Motivate your anger, to make them all realize
Climbing the mountain, never coming down
Break into the contents, never falling down

My knee is still shaking like i was twelve
Sneakin' out the classroom, by the back door
A man railed at me twice, though
But i didn't care
Waiting is wasting, for people like me

Don't try to live so wise,
Don't cry 'cos your so right
Don't dry, with fakes or fears
'cos you will hate yourself in the end

Don't try to live so wise,
Don't cry 'cos your so right
Don't dry, with fakes or fears,
'cos you will hate yourself in the end

You say dreams are dreams
I ain't gonna play the fool anymore
You say 'cos i still got my soul
Take your time baby
The road needs slowin'down
Reach yourself, before you bloom
Reflections of fear make shadows of nothing
-shadow of nothing-

You still are blind if you see winding road
'cos there's always a straight way to the point you see

Don't try to live so wise
Don't cry, 'cos your so right
Don't dry, with fakes or fears
'cos you will hate yourself in the end

Don't try to live so wise
Don't cry 'cos your so right
Don't dry with fakes or fears
'cos you will hate yourself in the end

Don't try to live so wise
Don't cry 'cos your so right
Don't dry with fakes or fears
'cos you will hate yourself in the end

'cos you will hate yourself in the end
'cos you will hate yourself in the end
'cos you will hate yourself in the end

Shame

Admitting my weakness

Finally the exposure

And that’s why I post it.

With all my heart, i never meant to hurt you, harm you reading my blog. But now I know that you are reading my blog. And that really2 make me happy. Because finally I am able to say the things I’ve been keeping so long that just won’t come out from my mouth. Finally I found the way to really communicate with you. Finally you know what’s wrong and what is the problem in my head.

I kept

· Making the false accusation

· Making people to understand me

· Making people to know me

· Making people to trust me

· Making to “pujuk” me

· Making people to pay attention to me

· Breaking a promise that I never meant to

But I never try to

· Hurt you

· Disappoint you

· Make you sad

· Make you feel bad

· Make you cry

· Say bad thing bout you

But it happens and,

I try to understand you. Never meant to say that you a bad friend. And now, I know that we have a lot of difference and it seems there’s a lot of thing that we kept.

Okay, although I would prefer a face to face conversation, but it never appear to be come true talking bout it because some people rather forget bout it and just keep it quiet making a poison in their heart like me. Here it goes anyway. Why I said the things I said. As you know, I am a hard-headed person who only thinks he’s right and like to emo that don’t care about others feeling when I did that. But some of the thing that happen out of our control make us different. For example, I read a whole page just about promises. Or maybe two in a row that really taken me back. I am crush reading those because I really didn’t mean to do what I did but still, I deserve it. Actually, what had happened was, the thing happen BEFORE I make the promise, I did try to explain and tell you but you cut me off wanting to forget everything. 2^nd, when I complaint about how people mistreat me and said things to me, you said not to think negative about it where I was just trying to tell what I thought and misinterpret. But again it seems as if I’ve been cut off again. I am a person who really2 like to talk and it kind of hard to not able to. And finally, I kind of loss a lot of topic when I am not able to tell a story even though it’s not around when you said it’s hard to imagine something it’s not here. Well, that I’m agree. I’m a bit trasa but it’s not a big things actually when I gave something to you but you just praise the other person making me feel unappreciated and when I thought I am close to you but in ur blog I nothing found anything interesting bout me in fact just my biggest mistake in the world (breaking promise, agree with that), and it seems I’m the only one who has no relationship with you. I am a negative thinker when I said that what you did making me feel used and not important in your life. I know but still, i think negative, it does not mean that we have to show that we care. And I started to treat you like that because I felt like being treated like that actually. Childish.Hee.. =p

What I think went wrong,

· I am a person who just want to talk2, story2, bebel2, scream2, brag2 bout things and most of it not reality and fantasy just a bout me but you rather make it short and talk something more related with us. So, it kind holding me back to tell story as if you are not interested. Story bout things unrelated to us, is always came up in my mind I just can’t seem to stop talking.

· The problem is when I start to campare. Then, I will only see the bad side, think the wrong way. When something happen to me, I kept it making poison that kills me. Making me think irrationally.

· We are not really in the same channel but I just make the assumption. When I am a person who really like to show that I care, but you’re kind of a "silent care". I tend to assume you don’t care.

I am the culprit actually. But in the end, now I know a lot

of things. How are you. What you think and the way you think.

A biggest SOORRY I would say. But I think enough is enough and I get the point. Don’t want to fight anymore, this is the last thing bout that. Thanx for being the best friend wasting time reading this unthinkable blog, and responding to it. And a biggest thanx for trying to find the solution. I really2 love you as my friend.

Friends fight though.

Hope we're still friend after what i did here.